Telepathic thoughts to my bundle of joy

Confusion, gratitude, love, fear.. This feels like it's going to be a long journey. I knew you were coming, and I denied it until I couldn't anymore. Still pinching myself to make sure I'm awake. 

What's incredible to me is that I always thought if I ever unintentionally became with child that I would be deeply depressed and quite literally go insane, but after the initial shock wore off, I felt the total opposite. It's like the Universe spoke directly to me. I could hear my spirit loudly, "This is divinely ordained, not a mistake. This baby has a big purpose here. You will be divinely guided and protected." I changed immediately.

My body is now your temporary Temple and I promise to treat it as such. I feel motivated to exercise again. I'm already fixing my diet. I'm planning on moving into a bigger place. I'm always trying to be 10 steps ahead, but I'm a Virgo, and so are you :)

Your existence makes me feel like I have a big purpose now too. I can't believe a little baby spirit in heaven looked at my silly self and said "Yup, I choose her as my mommy". Your sister chose me too, 14 years ago. I guess you guys see something in me that I can't quite see yet, but I'm beginning to..

Speaking of your sister, when I was pregnant with her I actually was depressed. Not because I didn't want her, I was just young, scared and alone. Basically abandoned by her father. Being so young, I was ashamed and embarrassed about not only being pregnant, but being neglected too. I was resentful, I never got to feel what it was like to be loved and supported by the person who helped me create her. I felt robbed out of having a beautiful pregnancy experience.

I'm thankful to be older and wiser. My only concern now is to keep you and I happy and healthy as we grow together. 

I can't believe an embryo has inspired me more than anyone in my life. You are so important to me.

Btw, no one believes you're real lol. All of my friends think I'm pranking them. I can't wait to see their faces when they see my tummy growing. 

And your dad is awesome, almost as awesome as me. He's a country boy and I'm a city girl, I hope you have a mixture of our accents lol. He's a Virgo too, so you have 2 parents who will always listen and understand you, and meet your needs the best way we can. I wonder if he would want you to be a junior? 

Anyways, I love you, my little ball of blood cells. I will write you letters every time I feel inspire to. Stay healthy and keep growing, you're doing great!